Updated: Aug 1, 2020
At the moment each day seems to feel like a week, and each week like a year, and so on and so on. Life has come to a complete stand still, yet some of us still have other responsibilities such as work, university, exercise etc. Yet for some reason, I want to do fuck all; it’s weird. I mean it does fluctuate. Like one day I’ll want to do EVERYTHING. I’ll do yoga twice, as well as a workout. Lots of writing and content. But other days even writing in my gratitude journal is too much bloody effort. I’m sure I’m not alone in this.
I’ve had 3 weeks of legalised lockdown now and I made a schedule for myself as to when I complete all of my uni work for when lockdown started. I started my first piece of uni work yesterday....This entire situation has given me more time than I know what to do with, and I just want to do nothing. I find myself filling my time with sitting on the floor, scrolling aimlessly through my phone, and well, eating. So why is it that suddenly with all of this spare time, I actually have less energy?
We are physically and mentally confined right now. The situation that we are in is suffocating, our entire lives have suddenly been put in a cage and we’re just watching the world we were a part of through the bars. Is it any wonder we feel demotivated? Let’s take this article for example. I am at a point where I just don’t have the energy to do things, so I am simply taking my inspiration from my situation. I am using my blog as a way of journaling these feelings, knowing full well I am not alone in feeling them.
I think it’s safe to say we all feel a little stuck. We cannot see our friends, we cannot see our partners, we cannot see our colleagues - we cannot do anything we would normally do. So, with all of these factors considered, sometimes it is bound to get on top of us. Just think back to when you would normally have a bad day, you’d want to do literally nothing, right? Well the same principle applies here. We’re just all having more bad days than normal, so we are spending more time feeling like we want to do nothing. To make things worse, we feel like people are going to be expecting us to do more because we suddenly have more free time; this leads to a very risky downward spiral. Let me visualise it for you:
Feel free to save that visual to your phone or share it. This just shows the two main ways we can treat ourselves. We can beat ourselves up and feel guilty for not doing anything when, let’s face it, we’re in the middle of a global pandemic. Or, we understand that this situation is reducing the energy and motivation levels of everyone, and we are allowed to feel unproductive.
So, if you’re feeling unmotivated or guilty, here’s what you can do:
1 - Accept it - Like I said, these times SUCK. So, let yourself feel crap about it. Every emotion you are feeling right now is valid, do not feel guilty for it.
2 - Do what you want - You may not even know what that is anymore. I’m finding myself getting bored by things that I would normally enjoy, so even that can make you feel guilty. So, do what you want to do. If you want to lie in bed and do nothing, then do. If you want to eat some shit food without guilt, then do.
3 - Don’t force things - There is no time limit on how long you will feel like this. It may just be an afternoon; it may be a day or a week. Just don’t force yourself to be happy. Your brain needs to fully process an emotion before it can let it go and suppressing things will only lead to it being worse further down the line.